Tuesday, 21 April 2009

Are We There Yet? (part 2)

I wanted to say more about yesterday's post. I think that a lot of my frustration stems from "recovery" being REALLY hard to define or put into words. I want something I can hold up and say, "look- all better now". A healthy body would be one sign, but a healthy mind? How do you prove that? (which begs the question, to whom exactly do I want to prove it to?) All the things that I had originally clung to as indicators of "normality" (a job, etc), I've disqualified as nothing more than external achievements which don't really prove anything, let alone stability/wellness/recovery.

Oy vey. Back to the drawing board I guess? I feel like I am going in circles with all of this, when perhaps I should be focusing more on the small everyday goals/accomplishments rather than spending so much energy focusing on what recovery is/isn't, what's normal/abnormal.

Anyway, my internet is FIXED! I am excited beyond words- my new connection is much faster, I can view/post pictures and so far, is much more reliable. *touches wood*

So, onto more fun stuff :)

Breakfast this morning:

Chopped/microwaved apple topped with fage and Bare Naked fruit and nut granola. Love this granola so much! This is one of my favourite breakfasts- apple cobbler at 6am? Heck yes!

Afternoon "snack" (Katie- I hate that word too!)

Pumpkin spice Clif bar- love the frosting and chunks of raisins in this. I ordered a box in December which I am slowly getting through then have a giant stash of maple nut to work on. Clif burn-out in the foreseeable future I think!

And, I COOKED! I tried to bake something on Saturday and realised that my oven doesn't work. I was right not to trust it- it's seriously in need of some industrial strength cleaner, but I thought I should try it. After 20 minutes of sticking my head and hands in mounds of smelly grease, I gave up. Hob and microwave will do!

Quorn mince in tomato sauce with spaghetti + parmesan cheese and steamed spinach.

I could eat spinach all day long- raw, cooked...love it. Though have yet to brave it in a fruit smoothie! One day maybe ;)

Usual disclaimer: everything that is pictured has been eaten, not everything eaten has been pictured.

Danielle tagged me to do the "survey of 8's" that's making it's way through blogosphere...

8 Things I’m Looking Forward To:

  1. a long hot shower tonight
  2. starting work on Thursday
  3. more summer sunshine
  4. my amazon order arriving
  5. my TV being fixed
  6. catching up on blogs tonight (so happy about my internet!)
  7. seeing my mom this weekend
  8. my trip to New York in August (woo!)

8 Things I Did Yesterday:

  1. stocked up on chewing gum
  2. had a meeting about photography group
  3. cleaned my kitchen and bathroom
  4. doctors appointment
  5. finished my book
  6. had my first iced coffee of the year (!)
  7. grocery shopping
  8. played with my camera

8 Things I Wish I Could Do:

  1. get a copywriting job at an advertising agency in New York
  2. move back to New York (without having to worry about work/money so much)
  3. go to Australia
  4. go to California
  5. write a book
  6. start my own t-shirt designing business
  7. become fluent in another language
  8. learn to walk in high heels

8 Shows I Watch:

  1. QI
  2. Scrubs
  3. Mock The Week
  4. 8 out of 10 Cats
  5. Everybody Loves Raymond
  6. Badeil and Skinner Unplanned
  7. Sex and The City
  8. Sabrina The Teenage Witch (and I am NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT IT :P )

So now I am to tag 8 people- apologies if you have been tagged already!

  1. Katie
  2. Sam
  3. Lexi
  4. Leiba
  5. Sophia
  6. Stef
  7. Emily
  8. Pam

Hope everyone is having a great Tuesday!


Lexi said...

wonderful eats! the pasta looks delicious. I haven't tried the pumpkin spice Clif yet, but that picture definitely inspired me to! I agree with you and Katie, the word snack is a bit annoying.
Thanks for tagging me! I will be sure to do the "8 things" in my next post.

Hope you're feeling well today, you've done an amazing job with your food this far! Keep staying strong.

Love always,

Anonymous said...

Mmm that breakfast looks so good! It's pretty hard to beat granola, yogurt and fruit.

I'm so jealous of your Quorn cutlet (great idea mixing it into pasta, by the way)... I haven't been able to find them anywhere.

I hope you got your long hot shower! That sounds pretty great right about now.

ElleMigliore said...

I'm finally catching up with everyone's blogs! ha.

I agree with what you said about focusing on the everday goals.. and maybe not so much the everyday goals, but moreso, the everday accomplishments!!

And speaking of accomplishments, your meals look delicious!! I think i'm going to snag that apple cobbler idea for breakfast tomorrow!

I hope you're feeling relaxed today!! Good luck!!

Taylor said...

Loved reading about your 8 things! And your dinner looks Suburb! I want to go to Australia too!

Enjoy your Tuesday Missy!

Danielle said...

I love your list I definitely want to go to Australia soon!
That's so exciting that you'll be in NY in August maybe we can meet up!
That spaghetti looks delicious!

Danielle said...

I love your list I definitely want to go to Australia soon!
That's so exciting that you'll be in NY in August maybe we can meet up!
That spaghetti looks delicious!

Nutritious is Delicious said...

Thanks for the tag girl!

Why have I not tried Pumpkin spice Clif bars?!!?

Sharon said...

Oh wow, that pasta looks so good!
And great list - Sabrina the Teenage Witch is an awesome show! I read the comics from time to time too. HAHAH, I'm cool, I know! =D

Stef said...

Hey thanks for tagging me! I know what you mean about there being no real way to PROVE that you have a healthy mind and are "recovered." But I guess when we are recovered, we won't have to question it as much! We will just BE. LOVING these pics! Sorry your oven is out of commission, but the food looks lovely anyway! I hope you get to come to CA sometime soon too! I LOVE Scrubs =)

Anonymous said...

I wanted to say Hi. Previously Helen's journey things went wrong but I still want to follow your blog. You say amazing things that everyone feels. I hope you'll still stop by my blog.
Goals are important no matter how small. I have a few myself.

Cacti Don't Cry said...

Thanks for the tag ;)

I love your disclaimer, for some reason I find it hysterical!!

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your comment it meant a lot. I felt my older blog was more about my readers than me, and i wasn't happy with that, so now my blog is about what I love.

Jaime said...

i love this post. i think that a 'healthy mind' is being ok with a not 'perfect' body-- with not trying to FORCE our bodies to unreasonable expectations.

a healthy mind is being at peace with yourself i think.

LOVE pumpkin clif bars-- i ordered a box too and havent even made a dent yet (oops)

love your disclaimer-- xoxo j

Meg said...

I completely agree with you on the whole deal with the definition of recovery, it's kind of impossible to define it, as I believe it differs for each person really. I think each of us sets our own goals during recovery and strives towards them, thus creating different accomplishments during these stages of recovery. My words probably make NO sense whatsoever, but you probably understand the point I'm getting at :)

Hooray for your internet! And your eats! I'm SO jealous of that Clif Bar...I've wanted to try one of their holiday flavors, but I guess I gotta wait til next holiday season, haha! I hope you have a lovely night!

Love, Meg

Anonymous said...

Thanks for the tag :) I'm glad you've got a proper internet connection now!

Anonymous said...

lol! I can barely walk in high heels, too!
Thanks for tagging me. I was unable to write my 8 things on this post, but I promise to do it soon!