Tuesday, 26 May 2009

The Waiting Game

Thank you so much for your feedback on my thoughts about perfectionism. I am aware that it's gotten to a point where I NEED to find a way to ease up a bit- I am at a stage where I am reluctant to even attempt to do anything because the fear of not being 'good enough' is so horrifying.

Having said that, I finished the article last night and emailed it in. Waiting nervously for some kind of response and trying to be patient since yesterday was a bank holiday and there is a 7-8 hour time difference.

Onto today...

Oy vey. This lack of sleep is catching up on me. I can barely move today! I think it's the 'crash' I tend to get after running on adrenaline for a few days- when I was 18 and sitting some exams, I worked really hard in the lead up to them, then slept for a solid 4 days after! Having sent the email and no longer have it in my hands to edit/redo, there is a sense of relief and I just want to sleep all day.

So it's done and all I can do is wait nervously patiently...


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Last night I heated up leftovers from the freezer- I need to clean it out and it's currently crammed full!



Quorn in red wine and mushroom sauce with cabbage + spring onion mashed potato, roasted mushrooms and steamed broccoli.

I don't know what possessed me to make this- I have decided that I really don't LIKE potatoes! They went well with the quorn and sauce though so it's all good. I used chicken last time I had this, but prefer the texture (and price) of quorn...oh, economy- sort it out!

My laziness is definitely reflected in today's meals!

Breakfast this morning was a standard...


Bran flakes, microwaved banana and Fage cherry twin pot. I'm not kidding when I say this tastes like cheesecake!

I bummed around for most of the morning- went out for some 'mystery shopping' (hehe...). Snack...


I now only have one pumpkin spice Clif to use up- I LOVE Clif bars but am seriously burned out on this flavour. I have a pretty big stash of maple nut waiting... I have been looking at the protein bars available here recently and there is such a small selection here! Pureprotein bars (my favourite) used to be readily available in limited flavours (and only the really big ones) but they have vanished. I would have thought there is a market here for protein bars...apparently not?

Lunch was a burrito bowl repeat due to 1) feeling lazy, 2) feeling very uncreative and 3) wanting an excuse to eat lots of salsa.

That's all I've got for today...off to catch up on some blogs, sleep, facebook, check my emails a zillion times, sleep, eat dinner...did I mention sleep? Also playing around with the great 'bar builder' Heather is doing a giveaway from- check it OUT!

21 comments:

EvilGenius said...

good luck with the feedback :)
you might be right that the perfectionism won't 'go away' exactly, but I hope that maybe it can become a more positive thing for you than a negative? as in, the kind of perfectionism which drives you to achieve but has sensible limits, and doesn't leave you judging your worth as a person based on whether you can meet your own standards.
ps. Quorn is cheaper than chicken? I had no idea, and that's kind of cool. love Quorn.
x Fi

itsawrapteacher said...

Are we going to get a chance to read this article? I'm sure it is wonderful! I miss the pumpkin pie Clif bar. If you send me a list of your faves I will send you some b/c I have a plethora of protein bars!

K from ksgoodeats said...

Maple nut is my second favorite Clif! Hope you enjoy it!!

Sorry you're feeling the effects of not a lot of sleep :( Hope you get some soon!! As far as the perfectionism goes, remember that you are your own toughest judge - as soon as you let up on yourself, it'll be easier to just go with the flow. I understand how tough that can be at first but it does get easier!

ohsoravenous said...

Ugh. Lack of sleep = sucks balls. No nicer way to put it.

Good luck with your article!

HangryPants said...

I love an excuse to eat massive amounts of salsa with a fork!

Olga said...

I'm so glad you sent out the article :) I read your previous post about perfectionism and I am often the same way. A lot of the times I don't do things because I'm too afraid of failing and how that would make me feel. I can totally relate.

I always try to remember the oldie but goodie "you never know until you'll try." And I tell myself, "what do I have to lose?" Nothing! So why not try something different?

I wish you luck! And I'd smother anything in salsa :)

Katie said...

Good luck with the feedback :) I am the same way, I crash horribly after exams and deadlines! I hope you feel better soon.

Cacti Don't Cry said...

You're killing me with this Quorn business, you really are! ;)

Do we get to read the feedback? :)

I'm right there with you on the sleep deprivation. NOT FUN.

<3 <3

nicoleishappy said...

hey thanks for looking at my blogg, and i loveeee fage with either strawberry or cherrys!!! soo good.

ElleMigliore said...

You may say your eats are boring but they look pretty darn good to me!!

Good luck with that article. I just read about your last post as I am still trying to catch up on blogs from the weekend! Do you have a copy of the article you wrote? I'd love to read it in its entirety. In any event, I'm sure it came out incredibly as you are such a talented and amazing writer!!

Hope your Tuesday is lovely! And in response to your comment to me a few days ago, WHEN i come to France, I am ABSOLUTELY jumping across the pond to come visit you.. so be ready :)

Sheena said...

Sorry you're so tired today but I do know the relief of finally getting an article in and not having to mess with it anymore -- knowing I did what I could and that's all there is to it. Good luck with the feedback - I am sure it will be great.

Take Care

moretolifethanlettuce said...

I hope you get some sleep, you've had such an emotionally hard few days and insomnia will definitely make things harder!

Rose 'n' Coffee said...

Get a good night's sleep. Love your quorn meal BTW

peacelovepb said...

very jealous of your pumpkin spice cliff bar!! wish it wasn't seasonal :\

Sam said...

I would love to see the article. I am sure it is perfect. I am totally that way with writing though. I just tweek it and tweek it and finally I just have to hand it in.
I have not seen the pumpkin pie Cliffs.
Does Cliff or any bar companies ship overseas?
Have you tried drugstore.com?
Or Amazon? They have a grocery section.
Hope all is well!

burpandslurp said...

girl, I feel ya. I'm a total perfectionist too, and SO impatient. I would be chewing myself away with impatience...oops, please don't do that!
I'm sure your article is AWESOME...seeing your writing skills and your ability to express yourself on this blog...such abilites don't just suddenly die!

lilveggiepatch said...

Nomnomnom! I've never had the Fage w/fruit but my mom loves 'em. Maybe they'll be on sale soon! Yeah, right...

Learning To Relove :) said...

So glad you just sent the article in...must be a huge relief and now you can FINALLY sleep! Get some rest and tomorrow will be a brand new and amazing day!

rediscoveringlauren said...

hi hun
love all the eats...i wish we had more bars over here too! the US have all the good ones haha....
good luck with the feedback :) i cant wait to hear about it! im sure itll be super positive!
xxxxx

Thinspired said...

I hope you catch up on some sleep soon, and I'm sure the feedback will be positive! Try to let your mind calm down so you can get some rest!
I agree that the selction of protein bars on this side of the Atlantic is quite dismal :(

Syd said...

I'm glad that you emailed the article. I also understand the feeling of not being good enough. It's nice to know now that I am good enough. And that I am okay the way that I am.